Rediscovering Eden ♥
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
Whom shall i fear
Whom shall i fear
I am yours
My Life ♥
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
-9:10 PM
sometimes all i want is just some space to breathe. im sorry i've been such a disappointment and in your words, i've "wasted my J1 life away". but everything i've done in the past year were the things i love. council, street etc. hasnt promos been a good enough wake-up call for me? isnt quitting street a big enough blow? why do you have to keep breathing down by neck every single day? honestly, dont you trust me enough when i say i'll put in more hard work and effort?
im tired of listening.
thanks for being my listening ear, hearing me rant and cry and shout. i dont know what i'd do without you in my life <3 i love you
Saturday, November 7, 2009
-11:43 PM
this is such a breathtakingly beautiful photo <3
Thursday, September 10, 2009
-10:19 PM
"We laugh and laugh, and nothing can ever be sad, no one can be lost, or dead, or far away: right now we are here, and nothing can mar our perfection, or steal the joy of this perfect moment."
"It’s dark now and I am very tired. I love you, always. Time is nothing."
"There is only one page left to write on. I will fill it with words of only one syllable. I love. I have loved. I will love."
"Don't you think it's better to be extremely happy for a short while, even if you lose it, than to be just okay for your whole life?"
—Audrey Niffenegger (The Time Traveler's Wife)
090909 Thank you <3
Monday, September 7, 2009
-1:15 AM
You have always been on the move seeking affectionate, satisfying and harmonious relationships. Your ultimate goal has been the realisation of an intimate union in which there could be love, self-sacrifice and mutual trust. It has often been said that 'True love is just around the corner' and - if you haven't found it as yet - you possibly soon will.
You are very talented, imaginative and sensitive but you are holding back as you do not really like going it 'on your own'. In preference you would like to team up with someone, someone with similar attributes as your own, to explore - to seek out and go perhaps 'where no other man has trod before'. It is the unusual that attracts you and which will give you a sense of excitement and adventure.
The way things are, you feel that you are stuck in a rut and there is not much you can do about it. You feel frustrated and inhibited but if you can find a way to let yourself go, you may find that things aren't quite so bad as perhaps you thought they were. One consolation is that since you are an extremely emotional individual, with the right person you may be able to release some of that frustration and tension with some mutual tender loving care.
You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.
You wish to be left in peace... no more conflict and no more differences of opinion. In fact you just don't want to be involved in arguments of any shape or form. All you want is for 'them' to get on with it - and to leave you alone.
haha pretty true in my opinion, for most aspects luh (:
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it's gonna be a crazy one month ahead till promos, and im scared. really scared. im not putting in enough time or effort and theres just so much to catch up in =/ i know that right now, everything else should be cast aside cos studies should be my main focus. but i cant help thinking about what things would be like after promos. somehow to me, the end of promos sorta marks the end of my J1 year.
has time really flown by that quickly? what have i accomplished at the end of it all? have i really lived my life to the fullest and tried my best in everything i did? and of course, something that has always been at the back of my mind - friendships. honestly sometimes i cant help thinking that im a really lousy friend. i dont spend enough time with my friends, dont do enough for them, dont bother catching up with them etc. have i been so caught up in my own life filled with a whirlwind of events, busy being involved in everything, that i've forgotten what being a"good friend" really means? maybe it's time to resort my priorities =/
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
-11:23 PM
everyday, it's the same cycle repeating itself over and over again. im so tired.
Thursday, August 20, 2009
-12:29 AM
everyone seems to be so emo nowadays, over different different things. is this really just how jc life is supposed to be? i dont know, but we seem to be happier back then in sec sch, when things were alot less complicated. somehow once you step into jc, everything changes. there's so much more to think about now, so much stuff to worry over, and most of all, so much things to do, but so little time.
it's more than halfway through the year, and this is when all the added stress starts kicking in. our honeymoon period is over, and now it's time for serious work. promos are in less than 2 months time, and i havent even started studying that huge pile that's gonna be tested =/ honestly, sometimes i just wish that everything will be so much easier.
've been talking to people, and you realise that everyone has their own fair share of problems, be it friendships, family, relationships, studies, cca, and the list goes on. wouldnt it be nice if all your problems could just evaporate into thin air and disappear for good? that would spare us all the emotional heartaches, tears, worry, and leave us with much more time. i dont know luh, but ever since entering jc, i've had alot more to think about.
i always thought friendships were stronger than this and that we'd never drift apart. but then you realise that everyone has their own busy lives now, and it's just so hard to find time to catch up with one another. from talking almost everyday to just saying hi in the canteen a few times a week, things have pretty much changed. is this the way things are for everyone? or is it just me not making enough effort? maybe i've not been trying hard enough =/
it's only midway through the week, yet im already feeling so drained. i know that everyone else is trying their best to survive everything too; im not in this alone. it's so damn tough, but im gonna hang in there. God's with me <3
you mean so much to me ♥
From the Inside Out (Hillsongs)
A thousand times I’ve failed
Still your mercy remains
Should I stumble again
Still I’m caught in your grace
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
Your will above all else
My purpose remains
The art of losing myself
In bringing you praise
In my heart, in my soul
I give you control
Consume me from the inside out
Let justice and praise
Become my embrace
To love you from the inside out
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart
Is to bring you praise
From the inside out of my soul
Lord my soul cries out
Sunday, August 16, 2009
-1:11 PM
You Make It Real For Me (James Morrison)
Mmmmm
There's so much craziness, surrounding me
There's so much going on, it gets hard to breathe
When all my faith has gone, you bring it back to me
You make it real for me
When I'm not sure of, my priorities
When I've lost site of, where I'm meant to be
Like holy water, washing over me
You make it real for me
And I'm running to you baby
You are the only one who saved me
That's why I've been missing you lately
Cause you make it real for me
When my head is strong, but my heart is weak
I'm full of arrogance, and uncertainty
But I can find the words, you teach my heart to speak
You make it real for meee, yeaaa
And I'm running to you baby
Cause you are the only one who saved me
That's whyyy I've been missing you lately
Cause you make it real for me
Ohhh
Everybodies talking in words
I don't understand
You got to be the only one
Who knows just who I am
Your shinin in the distance
I hope I can make it through
Cause the only place
That I want to be
Is right back home with you
I guess there's so much more
I have to learn
But if you're here with me
I know which way to turn
You always give me somewhere,
Somewhere I can learn
You make it real for me
And I'm running to you baby
Cause you are the only one who saved me
That's why I've been missing you lately
Cause you make it real for me
You make it real for me <3 
MY AWESOME NATDAY COMM (minus weite and sagar) ♥
29ths after THE RED PARADE! (:
Tag Replies!
mark: hey mark! thanks so much for all the encouragement plus all the really pretty photos you took for natday! (:
anon: heyy! thanks so so much for all the nice tags and telling me to hang on (: i really appreciate it alot. but wont you tell me who you are? please? (:
-: ♥
lathiga: hello pw groupmate! i didnt know you actually read my blog haha
lynnette: aww thanks so much okay! u've been so sweet and supportive throughout all the tough times, love lots! (:
jane: hey jane! i miss you guys too =( yeah jc life is really tough but its also pretty fun (: all the best for eyas okay! after that yall will be really free!
weite: oh man i cant believe the red parade is finally over! i miss all the wonderful memories we had together =/ but hey, i hope it was a great experience for you (:
huiqi: hey huiqi! i still read your blog. you sound really tired and upset =/ but hang in there okay? i know jc life is really tough and alot of times things dont turn out the way we want them to be, but stay strong, i love you! (:
sixuan: hahaha you saw on facebook issit? but i was so FAT! =/
josh: hahhaha updated already lah! actually i have alot more stuff to say, but i really need to catch up on my work =( anw i enjoyed og outing! attendance was like the best we've seen in ages yay! (:
